Well, not me, but the writer of the milblog “A Little Pink in a World of Camo.” I absolutely love the header on the site, especially of the Marine kissing the pregnant belly. Something about that swells my heart with pride and joy. The love this Marine and his wife have for each other should inspire every married military member to become as loving and dedicated. But…
Mrs. P – the blogger – has a new post up called “I Will Always Be A Marine Wife.” I write this literally wiping tears from my eyes and experiencing the same swirl of emotions (to a lesser degree) about which she writes. I’m bawling, actually, and have sequestered myself in my room with the lights off so no one thinks I’m in here. Only the glow of the my computer screen is an indication of life in my small space of world. I’m glad to see that she IS writing, since it is such a therapeutic thing to do.
I just need to share some sad news with all of my blog friends.
Sad isn’t even the word to describe it, but honestly at this point I can’t find the words to describe it. Angry, empty, crushed, confused, shocked, alone, unglued, hateful, depressed, beaten down… none of these words can do justice to my feelings.
I am being forced to do something that no 23 year old woman should ever have to do. I am being forced to do something that no one should ever have to do, not at this early in life, especially. I am being forced to lay the love of my life, my saving grace, my entire world to rest.
Sometimes hashing it out in words helps, so I’m trying to blog about it. To wrap my mind around why God would do this to me, to him, to us. I can’t fathom how any of this has happened, it all still feels so surreal, there’s no way this is real I am having a nightmare. Unfortunately this is a nightmare I am unable to wake up from.
Please read the rest of this post and share it with your friends. Take a moment and leave words of encouragement and gratitude for her thoughts. It couldn’t have been easy writing these words and I have no doubt she could use support.